April 2, 2018

Life

FREAK.

I am feeling so anxious today and on the  verge of a panic attack any moment. No clue why, of course. Let’s cycle through some of the things on my mind and maybe that’ll make me feel better.

  1. Buying a house
    We have been thinking about whether we should buy our current house we’re renting or if we should just find something new (and a bit closer) to work. There are honestly pros and cons of both. Main points of buying our current house would be the location is nice, we would be sold the house under market value since our landlord is also a real estate agent, the house is inexpensive and we could easily expand/build on it, we already live here and i hate moving. Negatives include the small dining area, need another bedroom, and the fact that my car was stolen and though I got it back, they still have the key. This forces me to park my car in the garage every single minute of the day. Pros of moving would be location closer to work, and we could find something that has a larger dining area and enough bedrooms already. Cons of moving are paying more, moving itself, and the stress of finding a place and actually getting it.
  2. Last Night
    I ended up having a panic attack yesterday afternoon. I took my medicine and was fine shortly after, but I had yet another attack at night! Normally after I take my medicine, I’m fine for several days. This scared the shit out of me. I called my doc and may or may not go in to see her today to see if there’s anything else that can be done. I really want a natural way to control this mess. It’s really starting to interfere with everyday things.
  3. Running Late
    I was running late to work this morning and probably got myself worked up about that, also.
  4. Amora’s Fever
    Just before I left for work this morning, Amora was really hot and had a 100.7 fever. We’re pretty sure it’s from these last few teeth that are coming in, but damn. It worries me any time she gets warm or has any symptoms. Kids have been dying from the flu this year. I just need God to keep protecting my little princess.
  5. The Other Thing From Last Night
    I just remembered that last night I got up to go use the restroom, and I literally felt like I was going to pass out! Everything was starting to close in on me and my vision started changing. It was terrible.
  6. Miles on my VW
    I’m leasing my Passat and am killing it on the mileage…in a bad way..
  7. Fixing my Solstice
    I was able to drive my Solstice home last weekend after having it towed to my sister’s job for about 3 months. I was so relieved to get it home, but now I need an oil change, inspection, and updated registration. Hopefully it is somehow fixed and I don’t have to worry about it breaking down all of a sudden??

I think that’s it…doc just called me back while I was writing this and said she needs me to come in for a follow up. Oddly enough, I am glad to go in! Writing this out helped also…

[phew]

Come on Monday, get your shit together.

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